First, I like to apologize to the mangaka for saying such thing. I know she put a lot of effort drawing it and making such story line. To be fair, I read all 64 chapters of it. I never gave up. Just that…it didn’t work for me.
Some people told me that it gets better. Perhaps they were talking about the college and post-grad arc but really. It doesn’t.
It talks about the same thing. I read this once in a review. That love is painful. And it does that quite literally. Only that it doesn’t escalate the way I imagine it will. The issue is the same all throughout (Yano can’t trust anyone. Yano can’t forgive himself. Yano thinks he has to punish himself.) It’s tiring. There’s no development. The manga just revealed the reasons why such a hateable character exists. And yes, at the end of the day, I still hate Yano.
I would have appreciated the angst if it was justifiable but (and yet again) it didn’t work.
Why? Let’s talk about Nana’s love for starters.
Go back to chapter 1…or was it 2 when she started to realize that she has feelings for the guy? When her heart went ‘thump thump’ with all the flowery feels and shadings. Why DID she fall in love with Yano? She told her classmates that she was different. She doesn’t feel attracted to him. He annoys her. But, somehow, at the rooftop, after their small talk and Yano’s smile, she suddenly feels something.
This is sad but she fell in love because of the simple fact that Yano smiled at her. And we all know that love is crazy so it could be possible for her to feel that ‘something’. But for the life of Peter, it is not just possible for her to hold on to that feelings for such a long time with such ridiculous takeoff point IYKWIM. Even after knowing about what Yano did to his ex-girlfriend’s sister. Even after the rest of his crap.
I personally think that Yano is crap. Why does everybody love him? It’s not just logical for someone to be charismatic while maintaining such arrogance. I would have understood the attraction if he was like Kazehaya of Kimi ni Todoke. But he just isn’t! He isn’t that handsome either. Takeuchi is kind and handsome but, for some odd reasons, he just keeps losing to Yano.
I even hate the fact that Yano scores high in exams even if he sleeps in class. What is he? God or something?
So when I realized that Nana is not moving forward, I started to hate her too. Even Yamamoto turned out to be more developed a character than her! At least Yamamoto had the shitty attempt to change herself with cosmetics. And I have to applaud her for being able to let Yano go and realize her stupidity by the end of 15th volume.
I know we can’t let go of love so easily but I just don’t get where Nana’s persistence is coming from. Hers is similar to shallow love built on physical attraction. I would have understood if he treated her with care while they were together but he just keeps on giving her bad memories while trying to be oh-so-mysterious with his past love. He’s selfish and his kind gestures are not something the guy next door couldn’t offer. What IS with Yano? I just don’t get it. He’s so immersed with himself. I would neither think of depending on a guy like him nor would I ever think of wasting my energy saving him from the deep shit he created for himself.
I literally wanted to cry out of frustration.
I held on to this manga because the ratings were so promising. They said it was realistic. I still read it until the end even if I tried the anime and couldn’t even finish halfway the series. We’re done with my regrets but really? Just because love hurts yadda yadda?
Do you really think such illogical thing exists? Even the reason why on freaking earth a good guy such as Takeuchi would hold on to his feelings for his high school crush was not explained. Do you seriously think that an infatuation without stable foundation would last? Are you out of your mind? This alone cancels out everything that happened in the college and post-grad arc.
Now I know that my previous entry says that the more human you are, the more illogical you become. You break the rules. It doesn’t matter so long as you keep your love alive. BUT this is on the premise that you are fighting for something. Anything. In Nana and Takeuchi’s case, I found none. I would have understood Yamamoto. I would even have understood Sengenji, but not these two.
Nana specially. Since she came out to me as a character with principles and convictions. She appeared to me as someone who uses her brain instead of eating it. Her view on pre-marital sex (on the first half of the manga)…the way she claimed that she wouldn’t be lured into Yano’s similarly inexplicable charisma.
ugh. Just no.
This manga is not just for me. And I hope not for you as well.
PS: I never felt happy when I read this. Not even one second. Not even when Yano thought he loved Nana. Just as Nana was distrustful of him, so was I. And I sincerely hoped she remained that way.
Too bad she was stupid.
Oh well, that’s love.
PPS: A little warning though, if you’re still planning to read this manga after all that…if you’re looking for a legit shoujo, maybe this isn’t for you. I think it’s too heavy even if the earlier parts took place in a high school setup.